I am sick of being a chorus girl.

I'm sick of watching the people with the lead roles slowly becoming the most popular people in the cast.

I'm sick of being scheduled to run the same god damn dance twenty times just because they can't think of anything better with which to keep us occupied. Hmmm, maybe a BREAK would be nice?

I'm sick of waiting an hour just to sing for five minutes.

I'm sick of being given one costume for the whole show, because obviously, who will notice if one girl is sitting on a bus, in a park, and at a nightclub, all in the same day? I'm sick of wearing a dress made for a 12 year old in my scene where my character is 19. I'm sick of the director saying, "It really doesn't matter. It's fine." just to get me off his back. Why do they even tell us to create our own characters if the rest of the details pertaining to them clash horribly?

I'm sick of not having my needs addressed.

I'm sick of sitting in the audience during the twenty five scenes I'm NOT in and watching the lead actress do a shitty job at acting, even though her singing is flawless. If musical theatre values high notes over character development, count me out.

I'm sick of pretending I don't care, sick of watching the show and getting chills from the beautiful notes that I know I will never be able to sing as clearly or as strongly. I'm sick of seeing myself in that role in my mind's eye. I'm sick of wishing that I were "that girl".

I'm sick of being invisible.

Say what you need to say...

I miss him more than I ever thought I would.